"Why would you need to walk if you're as hot as Barbie?"

I love, absolutely love, Natalie Tran from the Community Channel. (:
Thank you Melissa.

realizations.

I've realized that not everyone will be my friend forever.
I've lost 3 best friends, and I feel like I'm losing another.
Realizations are hard to come by and when they hit, they can hit hard or soft, depending on the matter.
This one has hit medium rare, if that's possible. Believe it or not, I know that this is happening and there's no denying it. Relationships thrive on seeing each other, sharing everything, and trust. I've been less trustworthy than normal, and less open. I feel like if I do end up losing this friend, no I'm not name-dropping, it will be bittersweet.
Bitter because, yeah everyone hates losing a friend especially such a close friend.
Sweet because, I'll be left with the wisdom and respect for him/her.

The point of this blog is not to complain about losing a friend, but to thank them for being there through the hardest moments and to appreciate their kindness.
Even if the person never reads it, they know what's happening, and they know somehow, someway, this is about them.

Another realization I've come to is that I really need to lose weight.
Diabetes is a possibility in my family genes, and if I get overweight, I'll be regretting the way I have lived life.

Dear (name),
I appreciate you more than you could ever fathom. I believe that if I hadn't made decisions that put us further and further apart our friendship would still be growing and growing by the second. Things aren't the same when I'm around you. I don't feel like I can fully be myself anymore. Who knows, maybe I don't even know myself. I wish you the best of luck in everything you do, and if we become closer, great. If we don't that's just the way life's paths lead us.

Love,
The best friend who was never there for you.

Always remember, no matter how many times you deny it, Myspace and Facebook heroes/statuses etc., will always mean something to you.

092309

Today was interesting. It was actually really good and I'm pissed I didn't get any of it on camera. First period was fun because we didn't do much. Second period was okay we just did busy work really the whole day. Lunch was AMAZING. Today was the best day I've ever had at lunch. My lunch table consists of me, Scott, Hannah, Randi, Beth, Kendall, Meade, Maya, and Chidster. There's another girl named Kathy that'll probably start sitting with us, too. Anyways, we were all sitting there eating our food, sharing food, sharing drinks like usual. Then we decided to do a Brutal Face Showdown. We were all making brutal faces and laughing our asses off. Maya went first, then Beth. Chidster refused to do one so Scott went and it looked like he was giving someone a blowjob. Kendall then went and she kind of scared me. It was my turn so I did my best brutal face I could do. Beth yelled, "YOU LOOK LIKE MATT MCCLURE!!" Hannah goes and does an underbite while she's doing it. Randi goes and so does Meade she makes everyone cry laughing when she does this absurd face. Kathy didn't know how to do it, so she didn't make a brutal face. We were all getting along so well today. I'm going to miss that, because I know it won't happen that much. :/ Fourth Period was pretty great like it normally is. Cardona cracked too many jokes on me today. But then again..I called him an oompa loompa. Fifth period was whatever, we sat there and listened to some guy with an obnoxious voice tell Contents of a Dead Man's Pocket. Sixth period was same ol same ol. "That guy" is still the apple of my eye. He's been talking to me more <3 Who am I kidding? It'll never work.
Today was such a good day. Tomorrow's thursday and everyone knows that thursdays are always lame. Then it's Friday. TGIWBFS (: (thank god it will be friday soon.) Friday the school is taking a trip to see FAME. (: I'm pretty stoked about that.

Song of the day. <3
Individually wrapped, placed in neat little rows
Becoming a piece, of everything that grows
Some numbers, a name, to indicate you played the game
Came empty handed and left the same
a soul is a soul and a shell is a shell
The border in between is full of everything you felt
Some cling to a cross because they're tired and lost
They leave it up to the weather to measure the cost
And everytime I look within I recognize the darkness
Familiar to the image of the artist
Staring at the bathroom mirror in a strangers apartment
Can't remember her name, don't remember how I got here
But here I am, thinking about death again
Humbles out the stress, helps the breath get in
I need to check my friends as well as my next of kin
To let them all know I love them all to the end
And when the soul begins to reap, I think she'll know me from the sleep
I keep caught in the corner of my bloodshot eyes
And if she has the nerve, to let me dump a couple last words
I'm gonna turn to the earth and scream "Love your life!"
Love your life, quite cliche but I guess thats me
A ball of pop culture with some arms and feet
As discrete as I've tried to keep the drama and cancer
It's no secret I hunger for someone to feed the answers
I never expected a bowl of cherries
I'm just a virgo trying to find my own version of the virgin mary
And when I let them carry me to a cemetary
I wanna be buried with a pocket full of clarity

(Chorus)
Now, how many times must you prove you're an angel
How many more demons do you have to strangle
How much longer must you remain in this dream
Before I finally figure out if you're insane or a genius

How many times must you prove you're an angel
How many more demons do you have to strangle
How much longer must you remain in this dream
Before I finally figure out if you're insane or a genius

Let no tears to fall from none of y'all
Just remember it all, the beauty as well as the flaws
L-O-V-E L-I-F-E
Here lies Sean, finally free
And as I look across the sea I smile at the sun
While it feeds the weeds the nutrition they need
The people still breathe, the city still bleeds
I'm going to love it to death and keep planting my seeds
I'm going to love it to death and keep an eye on the seeds
I'll be in love till im dead, I keep reaching the seeds
I'll give all I got left just to teach you to read
Love life to the death and keep planting my seeds
And when the soul begins to reap, I think she'll know me from the sleep
I keep caught in the corner of my bloodshot eyes
And if she has the nerve, to let me dump a couple last words
I'm gonna turn to the earth and scream (Love your life)

(Chorus)

LOVELIFE (x16)

092109

Today was horrible.
Worst day so far this year.
I was really really sincerely close to punching someone in the throat. Closest I've been to punching someone in the throat in a while. By the way, the phone on the left is the phone I'm hopefully getting when my upgrade is due in October. Anyways back to why today was so horrible. I woke up in a bad mood, I guess I had a bad dream that made me angry or something...something subconscious. I go to school looking a hot mess in my opinion but I surprisingly got a lot of compliments. I go to my locker to get my Biology book and found a WeightWatchers thing with a note that says, "If found call 615-000-0000" Since it was before school we had about 15 minutes til school started I decided to call it. Right when it starts ringing the ISS teacher Ms Lamb comes and yells, "GIVE ME THAT PHONE YOUNG LADY!" and I yell, "WHAT THE FUCK!?" and she takes it from me and I'm instantaneously PISSED to the bone. I get into first period almost in tears I'm so angry and Mr. T decides that this is a "Hate Nikki Day". He yelled at me so much today that I'm surprised he didn't lose his voice. Anyways first period sucked. So I go on to 2nd period with no hopes of the day getting any better. I'm glad I didn't, because Ms Groom surely made my life much worse. I go to lunch and sit down, pissed off as ever. Soon I realized that everyone at my table was pissed. Turns out everyone had a really horrible weekend. Beth got kicked out, Randi's car got totaled, Kendall was stuck at home, Brian got held at gunpoint. Anyways...the rest of the day didn't get much better. And my mom's bugging me for a back massage...someone give me a hug?

092009

So I'm sorry I haven't updated in the last couple of days, I've realized that my weekends are busier than expected!

Friday night;
I get home and call Samantha and Blake. We decided to drive out to Tullahoma to K Street and see Breanna. They pick me up and we go to McDonald's. After that we went back to Sam's because she managed to lose a lip ring while eating her big mac... anyways, we get to her house and me and Blake started playing the guitar. After Sam was ready, we left and started on our long journey to Tullahoma. We get in Tullahoma around 8:30ish and Breanna doesn't arrive til 9 ish. We walk outside and see Breanna and I run towards her saying, "BREANNA!!" and she's like "SAM!" and immediately I was sort of pissed. She should know the difference between us...Anyways, I walk over to say hi to her parents and her new baby sister, Abbie Lake. Immediately me and Sam decided that we have a better connection with Baby Lake than we did with Breanna. Breanna's mom decides that she wants to take a picture of all four of us. Me and Sam look at each other like..."really?" We both look over and see Breanna and Alexx just cuddling with each other during the picture and me and Sam are just sitting there looking dumb. We give Breanna her trombone and leave. Not saying much. We get into the car and it's silence, I feel Sam's pain. It was radiating through the car. Anyways, we finally get home and me and Sam are pooped. We go to sleep.

Saturday;
We wake up and we make art. Of course.
Then we go with her mom to Target and she buys a sweater.
Afterwards they drop me off at home and I call Melissa to see if she wants to hang out. So we do, we ended up going to the Zoo. Which was a MAZING might I add. Then it started raining like it always does when we hang out. We left and went to her house. We try our hardest to go bowling, but her mom and the rest of Melissa's family was ignoring her, completely. It was really funny, she even said, "Hey guys, I'm pregnant." and no one responded. It was great. We go to sleep.

Sunday;
Melissa wakes me up and is like "Hey go take a shower, just in case the bathroom's busy." So I get up and take a shower. We get dressed and chill for a little bit. OH! and I ate Frosted Flakes! We leave for church and sit in the balcony with Daniel and Tammy, Rick, Becca, Andy, and Will (Keith's side of the family). We drew beautiful pictures of ourselves and me and Daniel made a collaboration work of art. It's magnificent. We then left church and went out to eat at Camino Real and got a delicious 4 Chimichonga plate that I shared with Melissa. We beg and beg to go to the movies. Well you can read Melissa's blog to find out the full story. We ended up going to see 9, hence my picture being the poster for 9, we hung out with Brady, Brandi, and Hunter. I was the fifth wheel, like always, it's nothing new. 9 was an AMAZING movie. JEEEZZ I wanted to cry at the end. So we left, went back to her house, I got my stuff together and they dropped me off at home. Nothing special. (:

That's it!

091809

Sorry I haven't updated much.
Busy week :/
I'll write a really long meaningful blog in the morn. :D

091609

So this a lame blog, because I'm on the phone with Melissa and can't think of anything to talk about.
I  talked to my crush today. Told me he was going to give me a "large" hug. (:
Today was lame.

Goodbye. (:

091409

"3 AM on my feet and staggerin'" - All Time Low.

So today went smoothhlyyy. (: I officially have a crush...for this blog, though, I'll call him "That Guy."
Only Melissa knows who it is and it's going to stay that way.
SYNOPSIS TIME!!! [breakdown.]
First PERIODO!
Was really good, actually. Mr. T wasn't there today so I didn't get put in a corner! I managed to do some of my work while listening to my iPod. (:
Second PERIODO!
Was "aburrido" (boring) Did my Nevada report and found out that I have a 100 in that class! WOOT!
Lunch!
Fer reealzz boring. Me and Meade sang  Lady Gaga and Metro Station the whole time.
Fourth PERIODO!
 Cardona was same as always, but Daniel gave him an external harddrive thing with music for his iTunes and he put Oceano on there....
Fifth PERIODO!
LAME.
Sixth PERIODO!
Was pretty chill. Finally played my viola to it's full extent. (:

great. Now my mom is playing "The Climb" - Miley Cyrus really loud...shoot me.

"that guy."
So today I realized that I have a fat crush on someone I hardly know. I walk by him all the time, and I see him outside of school. Today was different, though. I was walking through the halls during sixth period to go to the bathroom. He came out of his 6th period just as I was walking by and came up and playfully pushed me. So I pushed him back, being the competitive person I am. He came up behind me and pulled my hands above my head and made me hit myself. Meanwhile my ass was basically all over his shit. Then we kept walking and talking. When it came to be the bathroom I was saddened when I had to stop talking to him. Ugh, I hate being a teenaged girl. Too many emotions xD
"that guy." will probably be discussed many more times to come.

That's all for today folkz!!!

091309

This weekend was by far, the best weekend of the school year. It was so relaxing and friend-involved. I'll start from Friday afternoon around 3 ish.

Friday;

I call my mom and ask to go to Annie's and spend the night, she says yes.

Annie and Cody pick me up and we go to Beth's to pick her up.

We go inside and help Beth do the dishes hahh.

Then we leave and go to Annie's. Annie and Cody had to leave to go get bags of mulch? and spaghetti ingredients. So Beth and I sit in Annie's room and play Rock Band for a good hour. Then they get home and we all start playing COD 4 (: We play for a couple of hours then leave and go last minute to the OHS game (3-0!!!) Then we leave to go to Norman Binkley where we chilled for half an hour. Beth showed me her and Nikki's drawing's all over the playground, hahh. THEN we got chased by a rabid, 3 feet tall, skinny, skinny, skinny dog. So we leave and go back to Annie's. We then played COD 4 again until Cody left around 12 ish? Then I fall asleep in the guest bedroom while texting Brian, my poo bear.

Saturday;

Wake up and watched a couple of haunted movie things on ID, with Annie, Beth, and Cody. Then I had to leave to go to Carter's. They drop me off at home and I get dressed in my dark denim skinnys and a black babydoll my mom recently bought me. Carter picks me up and we drive to the mall. We get to the mall walk around for about an hour, then we left. We then started savaging for rides to the Muse. Megan tells us that she can give us a ride, then five minutes before doors open she tells us that "We can't pick you up, it'll sell out and we don't have time." So we FINALLY get a ride from the Angel named Michael Bristol! We get there and we walk up to the door and the last ticket was sold to this girl in front of us, and she says "If you're paying with cash, it's sold out." so we were like SHIT! and walked outside and chilled for a little bit. Then we saw Matt Cooper and he came and begged us for a couple of dollars. I denied it at first then I gave in to his preciousness and gave him 3 dollars to buy an After the Burial shirt.  I then saw Annie and Daniel and went up and gave them hugs. Then I saw Brian, Joe, and Jeffrey and talked to them. Joe saying I told him I was fourteen, Jeffrey saying how much he wants to see Melissa in person, and Brian just not really talking. Megan is chilling over at the other bench and finally yells, "Nikki, do you have a wristband?" and I was like.. "No, you didn't pick us up so it sold out." She started pulling it over her hand and I got way too excited that words could never explain. I run inside as Caliban starts making people speak German...so I'm like wtf? Then!!!! After the MUTHAFXKIN Burial came on stage and I almost pissed myself with excitement. I start shaking in the knees and jumping up and down. They start playing (I don't remember the order...so I'm not going to ruin it by saying songs.) I realize that I'm singing along with it and I'm like "YESS!! I LOVE MY LIFEE!!" I look around to find that Brian was all the way up at the front and had left me there, but I really could care less. I was so happy to be in that tiny 13 feet by 13 feet box they call a venue, that even if I could hardly breathe, it was TOTALLY worth it. They finally played my FAVORITE songs, Aspiration & Steady Decline. When Aspiration came on this really country girl standing next to me says, "Aspiration? More like perspiration it's hot as FUCK in here!" I started laughing uncontrollably but started singing a long and making guitar squeals with my mouth. People may make fun of me for liking this music, but I love it and I will stand by it 100%. So after they played A Steady Decline & Aspiration, I couldn't take anymore. I had to get out of there. There wasn't enough oxygen to go around. I finally make it out of there and I see ANDY FROM A PLEA FOR PURGING! I see him at almost every show I go to and I asked for another picture, of course, and he agreed almost instantaniously.  He loves me and Carter, we know it. Then a little bit later Brian had to leave to catch the bus so he gave me his wristband! :D I was beyond stoked. Matt Cooper also gave Carter his extra wristband. We go in for All Shall Perish and I'm amazed at how hard they were bringing it. I kept getting slammed up against the wall. It was perfect. THEN, Born of Osiris came on. I never really got that into Born of Osiris, but man...last night CHANGED MY MIND. (: The lead singer is amazingly beautiful, and he kept making eye contact with me. Which also made me get attacked by some drunk guys balls who was flying on top of me to try and scream some gibberish that wasn't even IN the song they were playing. So my toenail breaks in two, I get stomped on by a fat mexican, I get grinded on by a drunken chubster, and I see Carter falling on the floor trying to protect her phone. So I try and leave in the middle of a breakdown...DONT EVER LEAVE IN THE MIDDLE OF A BREAKDOWN. I have bruises all over me from that breakdown. Anyways I get out and I asked Cody Allen if he'd seen my friend I was with, and he said, "Yeah I think she's coming out...here I'll go find her." So he went and found her and he came outside and talked with us about boobs until Bristol came and picked us up. (: We then got home and made BEAUTIFUL art, which I will post a picture of. (I'll post pictures on this blog in chronological order. xD) We fell asleep watching Night of the Demons.

Today;

We wake up to Jodi's mom sounding really nervous on Carter's answering machine. When in reality, she just wanted Carter to come over and finish the Art project like right away. We then pull out the Rock Band drums and I play for like an hour and a half while she tried to make her harmonica fit in with the music. Then we start making our other painting, but Jodi called and said that they were on their way to Carter's. So I had to get all my crap together and walk 5 miles to my house. I got home, took a cold shower, and now here I am. (:

Pictures from this weekend;

091209

Sorry about not updating yesterday, I was busy playing Call of Duty 4 pretty much the whole day. (:
I'm currently at Carter's listening to Circa Survive playing with penis shaped water balloons. Well this blog is going to be short... obviously...BUT I have a magnificent Andy Warhol picture for you to stare at for hours at a time, cause i know I could. (:


Time to read Stop the Fucking Car - Circa Survive Lyrics


Don't be alarmed, I feel we're falling back to ground.

Don't be afraid, I hear in every word they say,
That even if you don't look back, be sure and find out who was there,
And what they wore, and ten more reasons.
Don't be alarmed, I feel we're falling back to ground
Your face is light and cocaine white.
Your face is light and cocaine white.
Misleading at most, I'm supposed to imposter a new you (imposter a new you).

And even if you're woken up, make contact both at once.

We've made mistakes like this.

And I'm just learning.

And I'm just learning.

Your face is white in spinning lights.

Spinning lights, don't be scared.
You have given so much more
Spinning lights, take me there.
He has risen, pull me under.

Don't stop talking to me, I haven't been listening.

Don't stop talking to me, I haven't been listening.

This operation's been abandoned once again.

This operation's been abandoned once again.

Cut me gently, cut me out of mind.

Cut me gently, cut me out...

Cut me gently, cut me out of mind.

Cut me gently, cut me out of mind.

Spinning lights, don't be scared.
You have given so much more

Spinning lights, take me there.

He has risen, pull me under.

Don't stop talking to me, I haven't been listening.

Don't stop talking to me, I haven't been listening.

This operation's been abandoned once again.
This operation's been abandoned once again.

Cut me gently, cut me out...

Cut me gently, cut me out of mind.

091009

Colbie Caillat is AMAZING. (: Just thought I'd throw that out there. 


So today, I did absolutely nothing but sleep and sleep and eat some french fries. Right now I'm watching "I'm Through With White Girls" and this movie is great. It's basically about a hopeless, non confrontational, commitment issue having, romantic. I feel like I can kind of relate to him. 
"Ay! Yo girl is GHET-TO! I mean pickles and tootsie pops!" 
Hahahh that was a great line in the movie.
This blog today's probably going to just be a little splatter of big splatters xD Probably making no sense at all, but the only reason is because I didn't go to school today. (:


I'm gonna put up some nifty pick up lines because they're funny. :D




"Hello, I'm a thief, and I'm here to steal your heart."
"Can I take a picture of you, so I can show Santa just what I want for Christmas?"
"Hey, you look a lot like my next boyfriend..."
"Okay, I'm here. Now what were your other two wishes?"
"Let's make like a fabric softener and snuggle"
"You can fall from a building. You can fall from a tree, but baby the best way to fall is in love with me."
"You've been a bad boy. Go to my room."
"If beauty were time, you'd be an eternity."
"Giant polar bear. (What?) It's an icebreaker."
"I must be a snowflake, because I've fallen for you."
"I wanna bag you like some groceries."


LA PREGUNTA DEL DÍA!
What was your biggest fear about becoming an adult?
Responsibility, definitely.
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if you were an animal, what would you be?
A turtle. They live long.

if you were really famous, you would be famous for..
Acting.

if you were the richest person in the world, what would you spend your money on?
My mom's back surgery.

if you were a school lunch, what would you be?
Chicken Tetrazini

if you had to eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be?
Impossible

if you could change your name, you would change it to...?
I wouldn't

if you could change one thing about the way you look it would be...
I'd be skinnier.

if you had to listen to one song for the rest of your life it would be..
Impossible

if you had a baby boy you would name it...
Bryson

if you had a baby girl you would name it...
Reagan

if you could shop at one store only it would be..
Walmart.

if my life were a movie it would be called..
Lifeless in Nashville

if i had a rock band it would be called..
The Polaroids

if you could have one super power, what would it be and why?
Mind Reading.

if there was one thing in this world you could stop what would it be?
War

if you were a bird, where would you fly to?
Florida

if you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be?
Venice, Italy

if you could name a town, what would u call it?
Discotech

if you could have any kind of dog, what would it be and what would you name it?
Idk.

if you could get a job anywhere, where would it be?
I have no idea.

if you could name a casino, what would you call it?
Lucky Nikki's

if you were a desert what would you be?
Dry?

if you could own any sports team, what team would you choose?
The Lakers.

if you could make one wish, what would you wish for?
For a guy to love me for me.

if you had a purple cat, what would you name it?
Purple Cat.

if you could bring someone back to life, who would it be?
My grandmother.

if you could change your birthday, what day would you make it?
March 17th.

if you could change anything about your life, what would you change?
We had more money.

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My best friend is great.
"Nikki. Princess is eating my cat's crap."

090909

So today went pretty smoothly. I got to leave school early, because Annie had to go home. So I'm really excited about this Beatles Rock Band thing...I'm really wanting it...like now...but I can live for a little bit without having to play it. Today is 09-09-09...which means it's a lucky day for someone born on September 9th. I wish everyone a magnificent birthday today. Okay, I'm going to be lame and give a synopsis for each of my school days, from here on out. (:

FiRST PERiOD;

Was fun. Had Mister Thorson as a sub again for the 5th time in my high school career. He told me how much he hated Miss Ellis-Dixon's classes last year at Overton. (: He's a cool guy. He really means well.

SECOND PERiOD;

Was beyond lame. I sincerely dislike my geography class...It's mainly the teacher that I dislike. I love the people in it and the subject itself, but the teacher...blah I could live without. We did reports on states all day. We only got through ten reports amazingly, since the period is like 563 hours long.

FOURTH PERiOD;

Was interesting. Cardona always makes my life more interesting when it comes to Spanish. No matter how much of a masochistic, sadistic man he is.

FIFTH PERiOD;

Was boring and monotonous like normal. If I die within the next school year it will be because of Mrs. Perales.

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QUESTION OF THE DAY!!!

What's something you would splurge on this year to improve your future?

Driver's Ed, a couple of extra classes so I could possibly graduate high school earlier, and open up a college fund.

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Today, since I really have nothing to talk about, I'm going to pick something random and just...elaborate on how this particular thing makes me feel...

So today in English class, I overheard a couple of people talking about Allie Nolte. I automatically jumped into the conversation and tweaked my ears to my superhuman strength...just kidding...but I did start listening more intently. They were discussing about how "friendly" and obnoxious she is. I agree 100 percent, but I feel sort of like a hypocrite by saying things. I said something I shouldn't have and now I regret doing so. Anyways, I feel like a hypocrite because I know the one of the only reasons she does the things she does is for attention and for someone to love her. I do the same thing. I talk so much shit about people sometimes without even realizing it that I'm surprised to even have friends. 

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Now I'm going to be lame and write lyrics that I love.. (:

"I guess it's time again for me to mention the wordplay." - Jason Mraz, Wordplay.

"Mark my words, we're taking over the world!" - A Day to Remember, A Shot in the Dark.

"I fought the war, but the war won't stop for the love of God." - Metric, Monster Hospital.

"The silence isn't so bad til I look at my hands and feel sad, because the spaces between my fingers are right where your's fit perfectly." - Owl City, Vanilla Twilight.

"A foxtrot above my head, a sock hop beneath my bed." - Owl City, Fireflies.

"I've made up my mind, don't need to think it over. If I'm wrong I am right, don't need to look no further." - Adele, Chasing Pavements.

"Just get on your knees, and open your mouth, and accept this gift of lust and let downs. What did you expect? You think I really care? You're just another notch on this belt I wear." - Emmure, False Love in Real Life.

"Sometimes you're a tourist with a camera, stealing souls for scrapbooks." - Minus the Bear, Houston We Have Uh Oh.

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So enough of that nonsense.

I'm going to put my favorite three people of the week (:

[this week it's four... but DON'T JUDGE ME D; just kidding.]

I'll do this every Wednesday.

     Brian Alexander Laws!         Blake and Samantha (:        Melissa Jane McKinney!

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I'll probably update later.

090809

So today went really well surprisingly. I'll give you a synopsis on each of my periods (:

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First Period; Biology Honors.

Went by fast and easy, borrowed  tye-dye bandana from my friend Lindsay Davison, wore it as Tupac would, all day.

Third Period; Music Theory I.

Was entertaining as always. Ryan and I were giving Brandon hell. That boy deserves it. He's such a little girl. We made tests and had to trade and take the tests our partners made. I also re-started my period in this class, so I had to ask a couple of freshmen if they had any tampons. Luckily Hailey had an extra one. (:

Lunch;

Was pretty lame like always...these black bitches stole me and Scott's seats while we were heating up his lunch. 

Fourth Period; Spanish III Honors.

Was fun, this is by far my favorite class. I love being in Cardona's and him making fun of me constantly. 

Fifth Period; English II Honors.

Was obnoxious and smelled purely of Cinnamon Rols which made me hungry, considering I hadn't eaten. We had to revise our autobiographical narratives. I was on the computer the whole time.

Seventh Period; Algebra II

 Was pretty hilarious. We were talking about colonoscopies and Beach got uncomfortable with the subject, so he told me and Savannah to stop talking. Then sophomores got called to the auditorium for a meeting. Came back to Beach's and annoyed him some more. (: I love that guy.                          
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The Beatles Rock Band comes out tomorrow. I'm pretty excited, since I told my mom that I really really really really (please?) want it for either my birthday or christmas. Wouldn't that be a magnificent sweet sixteen present? Come home to a huge box saying "Beatles Rock Band"? I mean...I'd be pretty stoked. Probably won't happen, but hey it's worth dreamin' for.

QUESTION OF THE DAY (I'll be doing this from now on. :D)

If you had an extra day each month - that no one else had - how would you spend it? 

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I'd spend it cleaning and or relaxing. I really would like to have that extra day...it would help alot.

I've decided that I've always wanted to send a question to an advice column...like Dear Abby, Dear Sally, stuff like that. So I'm going to write my question or situation real fast.

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Dear Abby,

I've been wondering for a while...what have I done to make people not like me? 

I truly try my hardest, maybe too hard, to get guys and friends. I'm tired of not having a boyfriend...sounds lame and immature and slightly obsessed, but it's just bothering me.

I have a best friend who I'd give the world to in a second. I have a group of good friends that I can tell stories to and practice my "Pretending I Care" face with, but I've never had that ONE guy that I can sit down and bitch to constantly, and he'll love me the same no matter what. Love me when the sun shines out of my ass.  Love me when I'm puking and will hold my hair back. Love me when I'm at my worst. Love me when I'm at my best, and love me just for being me. Thing is, I don't know who "me" is. I haven't a clue on who I really am. I'm still trying to discover myself, make myself known, and to blossom into something really worth living for. I know it probably sounds like I'm just complaining now, but this situation means a lot to me, and I constantly think about it. 

Sincerely,

Notworthmuch.
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Okay, well I feel better now. Just plopped my feelings on this imaginary "mesa" I call Blogspot. 

Anyways, that's all for right now. I might think of some other pathetic and useless information to add to this thing later, but as for now, I think I'm content with what I have. 

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Lady Gaga is amazing. End of story. I am obsessed with her music. I could care less if she was a hermaphrodite or not. She's gorgeous to me, and she has really catchy songs.